That was a good read !
In high school I had severe social phobia.
I'm still a self imposed outcast it to this day. A more specific description is 'avoidant personality disorder'.
Avoidant personality disorder - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
I keep myself in my 'safe' zone, and therefore I have no friends ( outside of the family and 'friends' I have here on this site.) I've never dated - never even held a girls hand.
I'm pushing 40.
So what do you call someone that has an interest in 'smart' things, but is really dumb ?